Crossover

Just a few more hours, and 2010 will be part of everyone's yesterday. Then many others are busy thinking of resolutions and things to change along with the 2010 plus 1 and all that. They say that the changing of year will  give us all a new beginning and a new life. Like a rebirth or something.

It's just a state of mind.

Every damn day we are being given countless chances to change. To start again. A new breath of life as we wake up. That's one thing to be thankful for. We don't need the calendar to count 365 more days before we start to change our ways. Or begin something. It is always just up to us.

The New Year always reminds us that there's a new set of 365 mornings to wake up on and 365 chances to maximize and make the most out of it.

So, let's begin. Shall we?

Blink Blink

I dunno why, but Christmas Season gets me uplifted. Seems like a hundred and fifty percent boost in my mood, making me worry-free and all. What is this, a fetish, perversion, whatever? It has got something to do with the Christmas lights and huge decors that I see. Add to that the cold weather even on afternoons. Sarap. Past three years, I've been used to spending the Holidays at work, petiks lang because there's not much calls coming in. But this year, I got lucky to have the 24th and the 25th, plus the 31st and the 1st as my rest days. Yun nga lang, I kind of think it as sayang not to work during those days because of  the holiday premiums, but it's okay, I kind of miss it staying at home and spend it with family.

It has been my kind-of-tradition to on-purposely gain weight during the holidays, extend it until February and just eat. But we will see this time. I am working out lately and been conscious about my figure (naks). Speaking of "we will see this time", I know that things have rapidly changed around me in the past 2 years. It includes my way of relating to people, handling sort of  things, and all. So we will see this time what resolutions I am going to make and which ones I am going to break. Haha!

But hey, even if I know that I am short on budget and I am still going to buy gifts for friends and family, inaanaks as well, I see that I am going to be just fine knowing that these people put smile on my face.

It's Christmas so better yet be jolly!

Giving Thanks

As my Facebook status says:


If  there's one thing that I learned from what happened, it's that God was just showing me all the friends He gave me.


'Tis Thanksgiving after all, so I might as well say thanks to the people, whom in my dark and twisted days, have extended their hands and never asked for the juicy details. They just knew how to become a friend to a friend.


I may call some of them kapatid, mars, pards, manong, TM, J, Bie, Ms, bek, badet, whatever else. It just sums up to one thing. Friends.


Thank you!

Babylon

Whenever I am dead bored, it's either I surf the Internet and Google up whatever pops in my mind, or I buy some DVDs and do a marathon of it. Since I am injured and I have so many time home alone, I decided to re-run my copy of Queer as Folk (a gay-themed American series).

I remember when I bought this copy a few years back, it was the time when I just told my parents that I was gay. I was already hearing about this series from some gay friends that I knew from the Internet (since I was never really out before I did) and I got curious why this title seemed so popular.

Before I came out to my parents, I never really told anyone about me liking boys. Sure, I can sense some friends and schoolmates thinking of me being like that, whispering about me, and find myself eluding whenever the topic is being brought up. Being gay is one thing, and living a gay life is a lot of things.

So, going back, I inserted the CD to the player, and...

There was an abundance of hot sex scenes, gorgeous male bodies, dancing, and more dancing. But as each episode go after the other, richness in color of each character starts to blend with the others. And I must say, as a gay man who can relate to this series, it'll start to paint you with the colors of the rainbow as well.

Not only this series focused on being gay as a person. It also gave emphasis on the social and political issues concerning the LGBT (lesbian, gay, bisexual and trans gender) community, as well as the things and circumstances that are enclosed on being such.

Each character on this show has their own shares on how to give life to the colorful (and sometimes unimaginable) circumstances that could happen to a person of the third sex.

Whether you're a gay man hiding in the closet, a bisexual male sneaking around and watching cute boys when your girlfriend is not looking, a cross-dresser, a lesbian couple, a mother with a gay son, this series will give you the courage to accept yourself or the people whom you least thought was gay, make you proud of yourself, and embrace who you really are.

The Boat isn't Sinking

Some of the reasons why Paolo Coelho is my most beloved author of all time.

He wrote:

"On the way, I meet strong currents, winds and storms, but I keep rowing, exhausted, knowing that I have drifted away from my chosen course and that the island I was trying to reach is no longer on my horizon. I can't turn back though." - THE ZAHIR

"You should try all wines - of some, take only a sip, of others, drink the whole bottle. How can you distinguish one from the other? By taste. Only someone who has tasted sour wine can recognize good wine." - BRIDA

"Whenever you want to achieve something, keep your eyes open, concentrate and make sure you know exactly what it is that you want. No one can hit their target with their eyes closed." - THE DEVIL AND MISS PRYM

Thank you, Sir.

Return To Work Order

See, I haven't been going to work since last week. Been absent for 9 consecutive days now and still planning on not returning. I am still torn between whether or not to continue working in the company I am currently in, considering some circumstances. Thoughts of maybe looking for another place and nature of business to work in are coming in. 

Chances are:

• I may find another job and have a normal schedule with days off on the weekends, but end up being paid so little. (I work in a call center environment, so the perks are frickishly awesome!)
• I can bear being paid less than what I get now if I find a job nearby home, save on travel time and expenses, but also make a cut on the lifestyle I've already been used to.
• Continue working in the current company I am with, but dread every damn day of dragging myself to going to that place - travel time, by the way, is 2 and 1/2 hours going to, and another 2 and 1/2 hours back. Or,
• I can just accept and adjust to the fact that things change, things happen, and not everything and everyone would be to my favor. 

Is it what you call 'laziness'? Or have I just had enough?

24

I once had a shirt that says, "Aging means perpetually being in your mid-20s". At that time I first read that I didn't even know what that meant.

See, in a couple of days I'll be turning 24. Not that am excited about my birthday, nor not excited. Whatever. It is just a regular and ordinary day for me when my age gets a plus one. I'm kind of not a big fan of my own birthday celebration; I just like attending somebody else's.

A bit surprising, though, that people are asking me what my plans are for that day. I am not used to that. I mean I'm not used to people remembering that day for me.

But I am thankful.