Gambling Lord

Kapag sumugal ka,


Walang kasiguruhan na mananalo ka.


Kasi, yung iba mandaraya.


Yung iba, maswerte. Unang taya pa lang, jackpot na.


Iba naman, ilang ulit munang matatalo bago manalo.


May mga pagkakataon na kakabigin ng iba ang lahat ng taya mo, at wala ng bumalik sayo.


Pero ang mahalaga, magtira ka ng pantaya.


Wag mong itodo pati pato.


Para kung matalo ka man, may pantaya ka pa sa susunod.


Baka sakaling swertehin ka na.


Malay mo.

Anong Gusto Mong Maging Paglaki Mo?

Naaalala mo ba nung bata ka?
Ang pinaka big deal na sayo eh kung makakakuha ka ba ng regalo mula kay Santa Claus.
O di naman kaya eh iiyak ka ng malakas, maski maraming tao pagka di ka binili ng laruan. 
Minsan naman, namomroblema ka kasi pinapatulog ka na ng nanay mo maski ayaw mo pang matulog.
Kapag may nakagalit ka na kalaro mo, ilang minuto lang bati na ulit kayo.
Kung tamarin kang pumasok sa eskwelahan, nagcucutting classes ka pa.
Ang tanging bagay na kinatatakutan mo ay ang white lady, manananggal, tiyanak, etc.




Pero hindi tayo habambuhay na bata.
Lumilipas ang panahon, at napakabilis nito na hindi mo namamalayan, tinutubuan ka na ng buhok sa kung anumang bahagi ng katawan mo.




Tumatanda tayo. At kasama neto ang responsibilidad. Hindi lang sa sarili mo, sa ibang tao, sa sitwasyon, sa pamilya mo. Mapapansin mo,
Ang pinaka big deal sayo eh kung may trabaho ka ba, kung may sinesweldo ka ba, kasi dun ka na kukuha ng ipangbubuhay mo sa sarili mo at sa pamilya mo.
O di naman kaya eh iiyak ka ng patago, kasi nasaktan ka, o nakasakit ka, o napakabigat ng problema mo.
Minsan naman, mamomroblema ka kung paano ka hahanap ng oras para makatulog, puro trabaho.
Kapag nakagalit mo ang kaibigan mo, patatagan kung sino ang unang mag sosorry. Minsan inaabot ng taon, minsan wala ng pag asang magka ayos.
Kung tamarin kang pumasok sa opisina, wala kang choice. Papasok ka pa rin. Kailangan kumita.
Ang tanging bagay na kinatatakutan mmo eh yung mawala ang mga mahal mo sa buhay.




Ang bilis ng takbo ng oras. Nung mga bata tayo, nagmamadali tayong lumaki para magawa na natin ang gusto natin at maging malaya. Yung walang magulang na sasaway satin at magbabawal.


Ngayon, hinihiling natin minsan na bumalik na lang sa pagkabata para magaan lang ang buhay at walang problema, walang pasakit. At hihilingin pa natin minsan na sana andyan si nanay at tatay para may matakbuhan tayo.


Panahon nga naman.

Ganun Talaga

Kadalasan madami tayong tanong na ang hirap hanapan ng sagot.


May mga pangyayari  na ang hirap hanapan ng paliwanag kung bakit nangyari.


May mga kamalasan na nangyayari na pwede namang hindi na lang nangyari, pero nangyari pa rin.


Tatanungin natin kung bakit nangyari.


Sa sarili natin, sa mga kakilala natin, sa mga kaibigan natin.


Magtanong man tayo ng walang humpay, walang makakasagot.


Sasabihin lang nila,


"Ganun talaga."


Tapos tatahimik ka na.


Kasi, ganun lang talaga.

Rain or Shine

We are entitled to express whatever emotions we cannot contain to ourselves.

Oftentimes we use our mouths and say silly/funny/stupid words.

Shout. Cry. Laugh. Complain. Rant. Curse.

And more often than not, people who witness these are our friends.

Whether it be madness or just plain stupidity that they've seen,

They're still gonna be there.

Real friends don't judge. They just, remain as your friends after everything.

I am just thankful I have a lot.

Knock Knock

Minsan, kapag nananahimik tayo sa buhay, yung tipong nasanay ka na sa mga ginagawa mo araw araw dahil ilang taon ka na ring ganun at kabisado mo na ang takbo ng araw mo ay okay ka na dun. Akala mo okay ka na ng  ganun.

Tapos biglang may darating, iibahin ang takbo ng mga bagay bagay sa buhay at paligid mo. Mag iiba ang routine mo sa araw araw, kasi kasama na sya sa araw araw mo.

Papasayahin ka.

Tapos, 

biglang 

aalis.

Pagkaalis nya, bakit ang hirap hirap ng bumalik sa punto ng buhay mo nung bago sya dumating? Eh samantalang ilang taon ka namang nabuhay ng wala sya.

It Was You

When you invited me to go out on a date, I said yes.

I remember how cold the coffee has gotten before I arrived.

And when you smiled,

it changed everything.

Because from there and then on, I felt butterflies.

I fell for the sweet words and kind gestures,

I can even say that I felt love in that instant.

We were high, nothing else existed but us.

It's as if we were drowning with the strong feeling,

and not fighting back.

Yes, it was perfect. It was very beautiful

but only for a moment.

It seemed to us that it was going to last forever.

Or at least for me, it did.

Because, like, every dream, it had to end.

I found out in a not-so-pleasant way how you bluffed.

How you played

and how you faked.

It's as if I was stabbed.

And I had no choice but to walk away.

I never looked back.

It was it. The end of us.

I thought what I did was the right thing

Walking away and not looking back

but thoughts of you haunt me every night

and follows me through the day, every damn day.

The attempt to have a relationship failed.

One after the other.

It kind of occurred to me that I was finding "you" in them.

There was never you in them.

They will never be you.

You were a rare find.

An angel to my eyes.

Heartless.

Three years gone.

Looking up the sky, I told myself

that I would be okay.

Just like this.

Loving you deeply still. Even if no one else knows.

Even if you do not know.

Because for me, what matters is yesterday.

With you in it.

With your smile on it.

Closing Circles, Shutting Doors

There come some times when something reaches its end. Or it always happen - the end. Whether it be a difficult task that has finally been done after an immeasurable amount of hardship, a long-searched dream that has been found, waiting, agony, holding on, even life itself. Time may be there to always tell whether or not something is done. Or we oftentimes do it ourselves.

When something unpleasant happens, most likely we would blame ourselves and couldn't help but wonder what might have been if you were just able to think clearly that time to make the right decision. We hold on to the fact that, it is still not too late to change it, that there is still something we could do to make it right. But most of the time there isn't.

See, holding on to something consumes much part of you. Because in holding on, you beg and you ask, you dream and you think that there is still something that you can do. We are not superheroes.

We say that time heals. It does, as a matter of fact. But don't be too lazy to leave all the action to time. We should also do our part. Acceptance, for example, is a good start. Accept that there's nothing you can do to change the past. It has already happened and you did the best you could. When you are facing your shortcomings, do not forget the person you once are before that failure or ugliness occurred. Forgetting who we are and how good we used to be is a big monster that eats us alive.

Forgiveness to oneself may be too much to ask, because we always inject into our minds that it could have not happened if it were not because of your fault. We blame ourselves. Then again, would blaming yourself help? Certainly not.

See, moving on is a process. Letting go is a long road. You could not be hurt and be okay in an instant. It is very rare that it happens. Quick fixes may always be there, and life may throw you an easy way out. It's your call. You may be able to get out of the ugliness that fast, but ask yourself. Would you be helping yourself if you are going to escape?

It will come. And you owe it to yourself to at least go through the agony, for when the day comes, you can tell yourself that YOU LEARNED.