Closing Circles, Shutting Doors

There come some times when something reaches its end. Or it always happen - the end. Whether it be a difficult task that has finally been done after an immeasurable amount of hardship, a long-searched dream that has been found, waiting, agony, holding on, even life itself. Time may be there to always tell whether or not something is done. Or we oftentimes do it ourselves.

When something unpleasant happens, most likely we would blame ourselves and couldn't help but wonder what might have been if you were just able to think clearly that time to make the right decision. We hold on to the fact that, it is still not too late to change it, that there is still something we could do to make it right. But most of the time there isn't.

See, holding on to something consumes much part of you. Because in holding on, you beg and you ask, you dream and you think that there is still something that you can do. We are not superheroes.

We say that time heals. It does, as a matter of fact. But don't be too lazy to leave all the action to time. We should also do our part. Acceptance, for example, is a good start. Accept that there's nothing you can do to change the past. It has already happened and you did the best you could. When you are facing your shortcomings, do not forget the person you once are before that failure or ugliness occurred. Forgetting who we are and how good we used to be is a big monster that eats us alive.

Forgiveness to oneself may be too much to ask, because we always inject into our minds that it could have not happened if it were not because of your fault. We blame ourselves. Then again, would blaming yourself help? Certainly not.

See, moving on is a process. Letting go is a long road. You could not be hurt and be okay in an instant. It is very rare that it happens. Quick fixes may always be there, and life may throw you an easy way out. It's your call. You may be able to get out of the ugliness that fast, but ask yourself. Would you be helping yourself if you are going to escape?

It will come. And you owe it to yourself to at least go through the agony, for when the day comes, you can tell yourself that YOU LEARNED.